No Storybook Ending For This Fairytale Of You...

You should see the little download bars! They are going so slow that it's poking insanity at me. I'm downloading random t.A.T.u. things, like this concert. I really wish taht I could get a version of "t.A.T.u. Paragate" with subtitles or something.

Yah...*changes subject*...*gasp*I still haven't been on an actual evanescense thread! haa! I spent about an hour in there going over the "whine and cheese" and "debate" threads. But newayz, Andrew is gone until Sunday *looks at floor* so I have absolutely no source of direct laughter...*sobs*

Jame's asked me the dreaded question today. I was so worried about talking to him about what happened (you know, my breaking up with him, but neglecting to tell him about it) that I just left the subject unmentioned. I just said that I was sorry, and he asked if we could still be friends. I was really glad that he didn't want a thurough explanation of why I did what I did and everything...because that would have really sucked. I felt like he was suffocating me...Like this:

"there is something I have kept away behind my lips,
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss,
I didn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now,
Things that I was sure of then have filled me up with doubt"

I'm sure that one day, what I have said on here will get back to him (some way or another as everything alwayz does, cuz not event the thoughts in my head are safe) and then he'll ask me just the question that I don't want to ask...Oh well...maybe I'll lie. Geez you talk about leading under false pretenses...No wonder I am so good at that. tch. Well kersplat.

I felt very detached today. I didn't really talk to anyone. I spoke with Becca a bit this mornign but that's about it. Makes me feel bad, I just didn't really feel like it. I called her when i got home (then again I also made a feeble attempt to call Andrew remembering only afterward that he's out of town O.O)...*prints t.A.T.u. pictures*...*downloads t.A.T.u. concert in Romania*

Oh yeah, if you didn't notice, I took out some old journal entries, because, uh, my friends have this adress now so I felt ashamed and took them out. O my, its 2 am, I better stop typing, like anyone's going to read this whole post newayz.