No Storybook Ending For This Fairytale Of You...

Is Chris leaving? I don't know anymore. He asked me out today. I said yes and I don't know why. There's alwayz that what if in the back of my mind. What if I fall in love (which is very unlikely)? What if something very bad hapens? I won't let myself feel it, I'll just block it out, like I thought I had, like I said before, I want things, until I have them. Then I don't want them anymore.

I think I'll draw a picture, a picture on my wrist,
I'll draw it with a razor, I'll draw it on my wrists
And as I draw this picture, a fountain will appear,
and all of my problems, will dissapear.

The pain is just my body showing its weakness, therefore, with every bruise and every cut, every bloodshed, I will be made stronger.

Trapt-still frame

Please help me cuz I'm breaking down
This pictures frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me cuz I'm breaking down,
this pictures frozen and I can't get out yeah
believe me, I'm just as lost as you (2)

And every time I think I've finally made it,
I learn I'm farther away
Than I have ever been before,
I see the clock, and It's ticking away,
And the hourglass empty,
What the fuck do I have to say?

Keep it inside, the image portrayed,
as if I couldn't stand alone,
as if I couldn't be saved, no way,
A small confession I think I'm starting to lose it,
Think I'm drifting away, from the people I really need

lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost, I'm just as lost as you, oh well, what am I going to do? I'm afraid I'm falling farther away, I'm falling farther away, fallling farther than I want to be.