No Storybook Ending For This Fairytale Of You...

you know what the worst two feelings in the world are? I thought you would want to know. One is sitting right next to the person you love and knowing you cant have them, and the second one is that feeling that comes when something that you love so much ends. Like a relationship. It's like it's so good for you and it needs to be there for you to survive but then all of the sudden it's gone. those feelings should not exist. I'm feeling the first one now...the guy (shock its a guy!) is just sitting rite next to me as one of my best friends but yet I cant have him and I want him so bad. Why is he there if I'm not suppose to be with him? I dont understand it. But whatever, I've fallen in love and now I have to get back up. Ich bin in der Liebe und sie saugt...means I'm in love and it sucks in German. but okay...i havent been here in a really long time. me so sorry!!! oh but i like this song, it reminds me of james. I'm sure everyone's heard it but whatever i dont feel like thinking so i'll put it here.

How can you see into my eyes, like open doors?
Leading you down into my core, where i've becum so numb,
without a soul, my spirits sleeping somwhere, cold,
Until you find me there and lead, it, back . . . home

wake me up, wake me up inside,
I can't wake up, wake me up inside,
Call my name and save me from the dark,
bid my blood to run,
before I come undone, save me from the nothing I've become

Now that I know what I'm without, you cant just leave me,
Breathe into me and make me real,
Bring me, to life

All of this time I cant believe I couldnt see,
kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me,
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems,
got to open my eyes to everything
without a heart, without a voice without a soul
dont let me die here....
bring me to life...