hey...I updated my blog with Tohru (if that's not completely obvious) and "Fukai Mori" background music. I think that the background music might be a bit distracting but even such, if it is, turn down the computer volume...or at least that's what I do when it gets annoying.

I fear to post this in case it SOMEHOW gets back to my dear rubber-band-shooting-mother. But I will newayz, cuz It's a big part of what has happened the last couple of days. Okay, introduction is done.

I went to Joe's on Monday night...he came over at about 11:45 pm and I snuck out and left. I was at his house literally for the next like, 5 hours or something like that...what I wonder is whether or not we can be friends. It just seems like it is impossible for us to have a friendship...without making-out all the time.

So I trudge into my house at about 4:45 and there's BILL, I kid you not. But, I knew he was there, and I had thrown up on the way home, so I just was like "I've been throwing up all night!!" and so that concludes that. My mom suspects that I snuck out but in her words "I can't prove anything" so that's the end of that. It was really annoying though, cuz I stayed home from school and she kept giving me the third-degree when I was half asleep. But oh well, she ain't getting shit out of me!

I honestly couldn't tell you how I feel about him. I don't know...I just feel like...I knew this guy he reminded me of, named joe, but he's not that person anymore, so I don't know. I don't think that I like him "like that" even, but it doesn't matter...
I want his body, not his heart...

more later.