No Storybook Ending For This Fairytale Of You...

i am far past the vicinity of even caring what happens to me anymore. because i cant feel anything anyways

"Dearest"

It would be nice if we could put away and throw out
everything except what really mattered, but
reality is just cruel.

In such times,
I see you laughing
whenever I close my eyes.

Until the day I reach eternal sleep, that smiling face will have to stay with me without fail

People are all sad, so
they go and forget, but--

For that which I should love,
For that which gives me love, I will do what I can.

Back then, when we met,
it was all awkward.
We went the long way, didn't we?
We got hurt, didn't we?

Until the day I reach eternal sleep,
that smiling face will
have to stay with me without fail.

Back then, when we met,
it was all awkward.
We went the long way, didn't we?
We got there in the end.

anyways, i have officially decided, that i am sick of hating myself. and that i am going to change myself until i find someone inside me that i like. i've stopped hanging out with people that cause me drama, and begun hanging out with people that better suite me. I'm going over to becca's tomarrow. and me and chris went out, and then we didn't, it was really stupid. it went absolutely nowhere. and this is a lovely song called "fukai Mori" translated from japanese as well. I believe that there is no reason to translate these songs, although their meanings are in depth, they sound very beautiful in japanese.