No Storybook Ending For This Fairytale Of You...

I went to aimee's last night. It sucked miserably. Her parents are so evil I swear they are out to get me just because of the one incident we had. So..I get up to go pee at about twelve a.m. and her mom screams and scares the fuck out of me "where are you going?!" and I'm just standing there paralyzed for a couple seconds like "to go to the bathroom" and she's like "YOU JUST WENT!!" and I'm standing there about to start screaming about what a fuckin whore she is and I'm just like,(with all the calmness I could muster) "THAT was aimee" I felt like saying "you idiot" but I didn't. And they're just really stupid. The dad is just so anal and eccentric that because of them I never want to go over to their house again. They piss me off.

As for being in love...it's making me cry, James went off to take the azvab and he's not leaving because they deemed him 75% deaf in one ear. I'm sort of glad about that, I wouild greatly miss him. But it's okay. I'm sick of feeling so stronly for someone who I'm pretty sure doesn't deserve my feelings and my time. But I can't control how I fall in love and how I feel unfortunately...Whatever. Anyways I believe that one day I will just stop loving all together and it will hurt...but oh well, a lot of things hurt.

I have to go to the counselor this week. She's going to see my arm I have a bad feeling, but she can't do anything about it, she cant force me because I won't let her.

I super glued my sheets to my bed pad...in a spot. I was sitting on it and I opened the glue and it went everywhere, and I got my tounge pierced! yayayayay! Me and my friend aimee bonded in that way...It didn't hurt as bad as I expected it to, but it did hurt. Anyways well...buby

*Rabensuki* is my new Japanese name unless you count J-chan but that's not unique at all. I'm trying to find a kamishiba thing but yeah, it's not working. la de da.