No Storybook Ending For This Fairytale Of You...

heylo all, what do you imagine that I'm back already. See, I figured taht, exept now I'm still at school, which is where I'll probably be for the next very long time. Can you believe it? Even when I try to get decent (or at least halfway decent) grades I still go BOMB! I don't even know wh I'm trying anymore. I should just give up honestly. I have a counseling appointment today which is also probably a good thing becasue I need someone to privately bitch to.

Counseling bores me actually. You just go in there and talk to someone that is payed to listen to you go on and on. It does nothing for me. I still cut, and I still have all the problems that I had before I started counseling. I'm trying to stop, but it seems to be taking me a long time. It's one of those things where you think you finally did it and then you're problem comes back. It's a bit uncontrollable really.

Anywayz, We're booking the Animagic room over spring break. We're probably doing it too early but at least we'll have it even if we want to cancel the reservation. It'll be fun either way. My plans keep changing but that's okay because there's 6 months between now and the convention...So either way

I think that I have obsessive compulsive disorder because I'm over-analyzing this trip thing way too much when it's so far away. I just sit down, and analyze everything about it. There's all this stuff that could be bad that could happen and I won't get off of it. Exept for the fact that I need to do my homework (which I do) at least every once in awhile. So I try to do it all the time. Blah.